| Sunday, July 13th, 2003 |
| 8:49 pm |
a kodac moment.
I had a meatball sub with pickles from subway earlier. It is creepy that the napkin has a list of how many calories are in everything on the menu.... creepity I say... verrry creepity. sigh my neice dropped that fairy I drew her into her chocolate cake.... my sister came yesterday to tell me about it. Just like a VISA commercial, ain't it?
Precious moments card from Krogers ........ 2.00
Catopoly game...................... 25.00
paper and prisma colored pencils to draw a carefully-detailed fairy drawing ...... 75.01
art classes for four years ............ 200.00
your neice dropping your one-of-a-kind artwork into her chocolate birthday cake..... PRICELESS!!!!!!
My sister said she took a picture just before it happened. I just can't help but think.. what was she doing standing OVER her birthday cake with a birthday card? Posing for a picture.. yes but she'd have to be practically standing in the cake to drop it perfectly in there... hmm. then my sister said she had to wash the picture off practically... *groans* I'll bet it is all washed-out looking now.. Oh vell.. it happens, eh? This stray cat is curled up at my feet so loyally. I think it likes me. I don't like myself very much at the moment however and my breath smells like meatballs and pickles. Ewww. Last night Jon and I were talking on the phone.. OMG Jon!!! I forgot to call him back.. well, crap.. I suck as a friend.. anyways.. we were talking about Harry Potter because he finished the first 2 books and I asked him what he would be in.. and he said Gryffindor. (pardon my spelling if I messed it up) and I said "well what about huff-n-puff? and he was like "HUFF n PUFF? You mean Hufflepuff?"... err oops. He was like "Huffnpuff? Is that the one for fat kids where they can't run so they have to huff n' puff everywhere they go." Oh, Jon.. *rolls eyes* you loveable smart ass, you. I have to make Jon a CD of Christina Aguillera songs... it sullies my hard drive to have such pop music flowing through it.... ugh.. I like them, too. He always ends up making me like things I don't want to like. I'm also making a CD for my sister with Black Sabbath (sp?) and White Stripes songs on it.. and Pat Benetor or something.. yanno the "Hit Me With Your Best Shot" lady..... ehhhhh... when did I become a CD making factory? Oh well, I like doing it for friends. Plus I get to experience music I'd never listen to normally. Though I'm sick to death of ICP that my rotten teenager neice Penelope likes. I'll be sure to sneak Tom Jones on her ICP CD... buwhahahahaha.. or maybe Monty Python... YEsssss... Python methinks. Current Mood:  artisticCurrent Music: Beautiful, Christina Aguillera |
| 8:02 pm |
*grumble*
My mom has used me for slave labor all day. Sometimes I think she gave birth to me just for the labor benefits. She had a yucky yardsale with all her old smelly stinky worthless crappy crap. I had to carry it around and wash my hands a million times because I have an obsessive compulsive order where if I touch anything germy or disgusting that makes my hands feel grimy I desperately need to wash them. *sigh* Bad news in the mail and news that made me pretty pissed off. The 47$ 'dorm room' damage charge they gave me? It was for the beds not being 'flipped'... I didn't flip the stupid beds to begin with.. my dumb room mate did. And I was on my own and had no fucking idea how to do it... and they neglected to inform me I would be charged if it wasn't 'unflipped' or whatever the hell. So this letter they sent me says they 'credited' me the amount. They also charged me 7$ for my room mate sticking a hook to the wall.. which I tried to get off and couldn't... UGH. I've had it up to HERE with that school's accounting. I needed that money and now it is in the form of a stupid 'credit' on my account. Screw that. I didn't even have that money they took from me. I owe it to my mom. GRRRR... you know all the pain and misery that school caused me with financial aid last semester.... *sigh* And I got this invoice thingy that I don't know what to make of.. they've never sent me a form like this before. It says my current account balance is three thousand and something... then it lists all of my financial aid which amounts to four thousand and says no payment is necessary right now. I don't know if they mean that is my student loan's accomulative costs.. or if I owe them some big ass amount because they screwed up again.. anyways.. I'll have to photocopy it and send it to Tim for his scrutiny.. the man knows money... he's kind of like my guardian financial advisor person. I'm in a bad mood and my butt hurts. *softsigh* Yesterday was my neice Ashley's birthday. I wrapped her up my game of Catopoly which is like Monopoly but with cats.. and a cute facts about cats.. with different breeds being the property. The pawns are little milk, tuna, a ball of yarn and a fishie. It is really cute and highly collectable. Then I bought her a 2$ Precious Moments birthday card from Krogers that said "Bless you and bless your birthday" or some such with a little blonde kid catching a butterfly. It was cute and sparkly and most importantly CHEAP. Hehe. Then I put 2$ in it and wrote Love Aunt Della.. and I included a fairy with bright wings shaded in powder blues and Easter-Spring greens with deeper greens blending in prettily along the edges of it.. very nice job on the wings I think. It had a rainbow look to it but with a more subtle softness. I didn't actually go to my neices birthday party because I was SICK to death of children since my other neice and her sister Samantha (age 10 and not to be confused with my best friend Samantha) had been staying with us for a whole week and was up my ass all the time. I took her over to my best friend Sam's house to play with her cousin Arielle a couple of times.. but Arielle went home all too soon and I was stuck babysitting again more or less. I love my neices and nephews to death but sometimes I just want to strangle them ala Homer Simpson grappling Bart's neck style.... *mutter* well, they ask a million questions about EVERYTHING.. I'm just OLD and BORING.. they don't understand I've lost interest in the mysteries of life and don't want to bother explaining to them why the sky is blue or why penguins don't have titties. Why, why, why,why.... !!!! and I am thinking... WHY ME!? - I couldn't take a piss without having little Samantha talk to me through the bathroom door. Good LORD, I need me some privacy. All of this was reaffirming my logical and very smart decision to never breed with these terribly decificent and defective genes of mine. ...anywho... I pleaded sick and didn't go to her birthday party, sending the present and money-laced card with my best wishes as little Samantha finally went home.. with relief I returned to my pillaging and plundering and the murder of the innocent people of Neverwinter. My rouge is SO evil... I wouldn't want to meet her in a dark ally.. no way.
Some FUN things I've noticed about Neverwinter Nights:
- When you have sex with the prostitues at the Moonmask inn or whatever it is hilarious... and funnier everytime they collapse into a snoring pile of worn out sex-slaveness...
plus.. you are nakie!!!! you run around naked after spending the night with them and people act like this is perfectly normal of you. or if you're a girl character you wear a teddy.. or a thong or something. Hee hee hee!
- there is a plant named Kermit ..it is in the city after Neverwinter at the magic lady's shop... in her dumb library... I tried to kill it.. hover your mouse over the plant and it says "Kermit". DIE Kermit, DIE! I think the person who invented this game had a girlfriend with a planet named Kermit. They didn't think I'd notice or that I'd try to kill Kermit.. well they were so wrong!
- Killing stuff and looting is fun. I think I may be evil :-/I don't know about this ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mckatelee picture.. I'm having trouble with it... hope I can fix some stuff about it. Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: yo ho ho and a bottle of rum... la la la and rotten eggs |
| Monday, July 14th, 2003 |
| 12:06 am |
CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!
My sister came knocking at our door at 2AM with her eyes red from crying and her voice hoarse.. and her toe cut NEARLY off.. with the smell of alchohol on her... she'd been fighting with men again.. and a toe ring had twisted around in the fight somewhere and sliced her toe open so that the bone was sticking out.... SONOFABITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I told her to go to a hospital but she won't... I TOLD her to go get it sewn up.. it needs stitches.. What did they do? She poured PEROXIDE on it.. and screamed that it hurt and clutched it hard with a damn wet wash cloth... GODALMIGHTY.... She wanted me to pry off the remnants of the toe ring but I was too delicate about it for her tastes... I didn't want to risk unhinging the rest of her toe but she wanted it ripped off quickly.. I told her I'd rip her toe off like that.. she took it off herself... ugh.... IT is TERRIBLE... terrible, horrible awful.... this is my sister who is wanted by the law.. the one with warrants on her so she can't even go to a hospital when she is sick and what she will do about enrolling her baby in a school when the time comes I have no clue. I only know that my heart jumped to my throat when I saw her in so much pain. I offered to call my friend Jon and have his mom, who is a nurse, sew up her toe... she ended up taping it together with a damn bandaid. And people wonder why I'm so messed up... My family is nuts. It was a full moon tonight. All the lunacy was out and about... we went to the store briefly at 10:00 to see a red-tinted full moon the likes of which would have made a great ornament for a werewolf movie. And the crazies were definitely out.. the guy at the gas station where I bought a soda shouted and cursed at the line he had to wait on "DAMNIT this damn line piles up every time!" then he cussed at the lady in front of me for handing him large bills. He cussed so angrily I thought he'd bitch slap her. Then he looked at me with a crazy toothy grin and I had my skimpy sundress on that shows perhaps too much of my boobs (but I was lazy so I just through whatever on) and was like "Hello sweetheart" and a shiver of disgust ran through me.... Then the lady at the gas station we stopped at started talking about chicken and how she missed having a car wash there. There was NEVER a car wash at that gas station. I pumped my mom's gas and was like "This lady is crazy. Let's GO!" *pant* I inhaled so much nasty cigarette smoke while running around like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to wait on my sister who is in so much pain... why does she do this to herself? She drinks.. she fights... she doesn't take care of her teeth. She doesn't take care of her child. She fights with the police!!! After the first warrant I would have been worried sick and paid the fine or did the time or whatever.. whatever was RIGHT to do but my sister.. she decided to run from the law. Oh god, how she worries me.. this is the woman who taught me my alphabet... the woman who practically raised me... she used to watch The Smurfs with me and get me ready for Kindergarten.. she made me bologna sandwhiches and told me stories... and... and taught me and bought me My Little Ponies every week with her meager earnings... she loved me so tenderly.. and yet.. this woman has such a dragon of a heart.. so brutal and so cold.. so viciously merciless.... If I am too empathic then my sister lacks any empathy at all... she is... cold and unfeeling. It has made her wreckless and cruel. How could it be the same woman who I love so tenderly it breaks my heart to see her destroy herself? I wouldn't wish any hurt on her in the world... but her undoing is her own choice... it sits in my soul like a waiting tiger.. this fear.. I know one day my Laddie will die because she is so cruel.. She is so extreme in her lack of care. Her lack of regard for authority.. Sure, you could say she was a bad egg to begin with.. that she never had a chance since my mom should NEVER have been allowed to raise children to begin with and it may have all began with my great grandmother who was SUPER mega bitch... I mean, she was a MEAN old cuss of a woman. Not to say bad things about the dead... but she must have had a horrible life to be so very mean.. and Laddie is like her on some level though not as bad. Laddie does feel some.. mostly for her child. For me. She feels some. She is so human and vulnerable.. so fallible. I can't condemn her. The law can... my own morals can... but my heart can't condemn her. She's on the couch downstairs with her toe cut half off. And I feel so powerless to help her or stop her from doing this to herself.. her pain goes through me like a knife... I want to fix her rotten teeth, give her a new toe if I could.. I'd take her life and heal it and give it a new chance.. and erase all the warrants and arrests... that time she spent in juvenile hall... my sisters were both 'sent away' when I was little because they refused to attend school... but the way my mom used them... the way she didn't care for education herself... my very life... my very love of reading.... my empathy is a miraculous developement because I should not be who I am right now. Everything I have had in my life has influenced me to go in the opposite direction of the path I have chosen but I knew.. I knew one of us had to 'make it'. None of my family are functioning members of society.. I want to be the first to make it... No, my dear sisters.. 'welfare mother' is not an acceptable profession.. nor is 'husband-beaten alchoholic'. Chrissakes. I have to make it out of here with my brains. They're all I've got.. meager and frail as they are. They are my strongest asset... and my imagination and hope may free me from this hell. But I wish I could free them all. The hell they made for themselves by giving in to circumstance or... or really choosing it.. or falling to fate. *exhale* So this is it. Please God.. Take care of them... I can't keep them safe.. I'm no angel. They'll hurt themselves or the world will tear them apart slowly.. but I wish I could... so please have some mercy... It hurts so much to see them hurting. Current Mood:  worried |
| Sunday, July 13th, 2003 |
| 4:19 pm |
mckatelee's picture is coming along so beautifully. I'm doing her in a cute pose. I wonder if I should add color? I'm not the best at coloring and don't wanna ruin the pic. hrm. |
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| 10:37 am |
Oooh
Look at the pretty new icon Anowyn made and she offered it to anyone.. so I snatchered it up.. with credit to her icon-making-genius of course. ^^ Ooooh, pretty. There is just something about the coloring that is really lovely... such a soft brown-gold color. Merci beaucoup my dear Anowyn! Current Mood:  chipper |
| 12:48 am |
Hmm. True......
most weekends I play Dragonrealms ( http://www.play.net/dr/) till my arse is numb... RPGs are my life's addiction and fulfill my need for a magical life in a mundane world. In the words of the Bard Ysselt... How many relationships/marriages have come from DragonRealms?
Anyone know of any idea or anything?
I figure I'll meet the love of my life through DR since I would require a person who'd understand this addiction I have. ~ I think so, too. He'd have to understand my DR addiction and be at least half as much of a geek as I am. Not that I'm looking... am totally content to be single right now. I'm taking a nice long rest from romance. Permanente if I can avoid love... frankly it is a pain in the ass no matter how good it begins. Current Mood:  cold |
| Saturday, July 12th, 2003 |
| 8:10 pm |
Birthday Present to my Lost Eric
I decided to have anowyn do a portrait of Isembard for Eric's birthday (August 4rth). I guess I'm just a big softie. I'm not bitter that he doesn't like me back or anything.. I admit I was weird-feeling at first. Now I just miss him... period. I didn't want another friend out of a relationship I intended and wanted badly to be more than a friendship... but right now I miss Eric and Isembard's company so badly I just wanna say fuck my pride and embrace his offer of just being friends. It hurt so much to lose him. I looked up a bunch of Dragonrealms websites to help with his character descrip. for Anowyn and there was one of Dewsong's concert where Sardie and Gale were smoochie and under that... Eric and Della were laughing on the phone together and enjoying the concert. It hurts to lose people, doesn't it? I sure wish I could sweep it all aside and feel nothing but I just want him to be my friend now. He said not to worry that Sardie & Gale would always be together.. and I said I didn't think I could deal with that because he'd be dating other people outside in RL and I'd be jealous and sad... which is true. I knew Eric before I knew Gale really well. I mean.. I started RPing Sardie & Gale as a couple BECAUSE Eric and Della were interested in each other romantically. I just can't shake the feeling I wasn't pretty or stable enough to get his interest. That's my own fault. I just don't care a hell of a lot about my looks. I live inside myself so much I rarely give it any thought or attention.... I remember how well we got along. He said my personality was what he loved.. that he'd love me no matter what I looked like. ^_^ I guess he was wrong about that... but at least he admitted it eventually. Hey, I really am odd looking and awkard in person.. totally lame. I don't blame Eric. He is gorgeous and funny. I'm.. well.. me. I had been planning a big birthday thing for him before he dropped the bomb on me about how he only wanted to be friends AND didn't think he'd ever have his feelings change about that.. I was going to go to a D&D store and buy a little figurine that looked like Isembard and paint it to look like him... then wrap it up.. and send it with the D&D book he'd been wanting and a character portrait. ^_^ hey, I can still be nice to him.. no law against that, huh? It hurts a bit but I will get over it. and I KNOW Anowyn is such an amazing artist.. she'll do an incredible job on this picture.. .LUCKY ERIC!!! Check out anowyn's beeeeutiful artwork! http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/a/n/anowyn/Can you believe how well she draws?? I'm so very jealous ^_^ When I was 15 I was nowhere near as talented as she is. Hee! Current Mood: wistful |
| 7:36 pm |
Hot diggity dog.
Fellow Elfwood dweller anoywn and I are going to trade art! My first art trade ever! YAY! I get to draw her character Anowyn. ^___^ hmmm. and she wants to draw a male character of mine... all of my male characters are sort of backdropped behind my powerful female characters.. The strongest male I have would be Dark Prince Henri. Uhhh, so how does this art trading go? Do people who do art trades put the art trades on their Elfwood account with an attribution to the giftee acclaiming them as the arteestarooni or what goes on.. I've never done this before.. I'm sorta nervous! ^^;; I hope I can do a good picture. I always wanted to trade art with someone... finally- here is my chance. |
| Friday, July 11th, 2003 |
| 11:18 pm |
Ok... I give up.
How do you kill the undead zombie lord in neverwinter nights? I've been trying all freaking night.. my character isn't a paladin.. should I bless her before I battle or what? Damn the undead! Well, I guess they already are damned but damn them more in that case... for being hard to kill. I've been trying to kill the dead all night. I killed most of the dead things even more deader.. more ... more dead.. 100% dead.... but this Zombie Lord is tough.. my weapons are ineffective... how do I kill him? tie him down and make him watch old reruns of Cheers? help... I have no honor & I need to cheat! :-/ |
| 10:29 pm |
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| 11:21 am |
Hmm. Can anyone make me or direct me to some good Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom icons about PoTC? Pleeeaaaase!? *begs* |
| Thursday, July 10th, 2003 |
| 9:44 pm |
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| 5:52 pm |
Argh, me matey!
I just got back from Pirates of The Carribean. It was great! I don't know why the review I read for it on AOL rated it a C. The review said Johnny Depp's pirate accent sounded likle Pepe la Pue. Hehe... but he was funny in the movie. I think this movie deserves at least a B. ^__^ I love how they incorporated parts of the ride from Disney Land into it.. I remember getting stuck on that ride when California was having those dumb 'rolling brown outs'. I was stuck at this particular spot.. near the tunnel where the pirates are all auctioning off hookers and the guy is sleeping with the pigs.. and we were there for an hour.. we were going INSANE... the robotic pirates just kept repeating the same speach over and over again... again and again until every person on the boat could repeat the speaches by heart... it was like being stuck in an eternal loop of deja vu... but I still loved this movie and I like the ride... The main reasons the movie rocked the casbah ~ 1. Johnny Depp 2. Orlando Bloom Mmmmmm........ enough said. *wipes up drool off her keyboard* Um, put in an application at The Movie Gallery. The lady asked me if I went by Della or Marie when I handed her my application.. and then she said she'd check my references and give me a call. I hope so... -_- my mom needs help paying bills... yargh... please call Miss Movie Gallery Lady.. I mailed Lepasse a new batch of drawings to be scanned.. including shenney as a shadow fairy and a picture of evilprodigy's Dragonrealms character known as Rinnel... and one of my infamous Sardonica Neerheart. An' some cute fairy types. Hope Steve-o doesn't mind scanning them. He's been so sweet about it so far. Current Mood:  anxious |
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| Wednesday, July 9th, 2003 |
| 11:45 am |
Must.. FORCE Jon to take me to see Pirates of The Carribean!!! >_< Or Sam... MUST MUST MUST!!!!! Or 28 Days later though I heard it is lame because the zombies are downplayed in it. Current Mood: mellowCurrent Music: Ignition (Remix) by R Kelly |
| 11:34 am |
la la la la tra la.
This karmic profile for aquarius is so accurate to describe my personality it's creepity.... ( Read more... ) Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Just Like a Pill, Pink |
| Tuesday, July 8th, 2003 |
| 3:39 pm |
mmmm.. stolen from serratia A pizza for starryhawk:
Tomato Sauce, Mozzarella, Feta, Parmesan, Cheddar, Monterey Jack, Fresh Tomatoes, Spinach, Garlic Chives, Ham, Bacon, and a perfectly-baked crust. | | Fun with pizza toppings at The Pizza Arbiter |
Current Mood:  hungry |
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